Sunday, April 23, 2017

A matter of running

Bismillah


Can you tell me what running is about?
Because I am very much confused. Very much unsure and undecided. Whether to run or not to run. And more importantly, the reason for me to run in the first place.
Most of the time I contemplated. Running seems to be fun, but it takes a lot more than your usual walk as well.

And if I were to talk about running in the sense of my pace, in living my job and life. I would say now I am actually crawling, with all my might and will. Trying to get up, just to walk first. Not even running yet.

And the very reason I am writing this is because I think that running, in my current condition, is actually running away. And that worries me. If I were to decide to leave, I want it to be because I wanted to do whatever it is on the other side, not because I want to run away from my current situation. And this situation is actually a result of the decision I confidently and adamantly made few months back, which also makes me wonder, why the hesitations I am having now?


Still unsure and undecided. I shall see would I run as if I am in a race or would I actually run away?


O Allah, do grant me Your Guidance and Assistance in this matter so that it becomes a means for me to get closer to You and Your blessings.



#lost
#donotleavemeastray

Friday, February 24, 2017

kehilangan

Diri ini seakannya hilang.
Kehendak.
Daya tahan.
Minat.
Sabar.
Semangat dan cinta.

Teringat-ingat pesan guru saya, semangat pasti akan ada bila adanya cinta dalam melakukan sesuatu.

Ramai khuatir.
Diri ini pun khuatir.
Mengapa?

Seakan-akan kelelahan merantai diri.
Terjaganya diri di waktu pagi tidak lagi dipenuhi dengan semangat yang berkobar-kobar untuk menjalani hari. Untuk menabur bakti. Untuk membuktikan pada dunia yang diri ini bererti.

Hari yang dijalani semakin dipenuhi pertanyaan yang tak terjawab.

Sejujurnya, diri ini cuba bertahan semampunya, sebaiknya, agar sekurang-kurangnya tanggungjawab dan kewajipan yang ada tidak terabai.
Namun, seolah-olah perkara sekecil itu pun tidak kesampaian.

Tuhan, Yang Maha Perkasa, Yang Berkuasa atas segala sesuatu, kurniakan diriku dan keluargaku kesabaran dan kekuatan untuk menjalani kehidupan ini sebaik-baiknya dengan cara yang Engkau redhai.
Semoga setiap detik kehidupan kami mendekatkan kami dengan dakapan rahmat dan kasih sayang-Mu.

#usahberputusasa

#maafsayatidakpandaimeluahkanbicara

Monday, December 12, 2016

His creations and me

#lateentry

In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful

Today, I am very fortunate to be able to do my favourite activity on Earth (next to being with my family) - sitting on the beach, facing the blue ocean. Undisturbed. Uninterrupted. Just me and the ocean. And the sound of the waves. Occasionally, I could feel the waves against my feet. 

I am very fortunate to be able to fell how it's like to be running on the soft white sand - it's as if you are running on cotton. My ankle would let me run the whole day if I wanted to. 

Yup. Just me and the nature. Beautiful as it is. Just the way The Creator want it to be. And these things: they keep on doing what they do; the wind blowing day after day; so does the waves; the sand; and the rest. And indeed, they are in obedience to their Creator. On top of that, at all times, they exalt Him. 


سَبَّحَ لِلَّهِ مَا فِي السَّمَاوَاتِ وَمَا فِي الْأَرْضِ ۖ وَهُوَ الْعَزِيزُ الْحَكِيمُ


Surah as-Saff ( 61:1)

Whatever is in the heavens and whatever is on the earth exalts Allah , and He is the Exalted in Might, the Wise.

Which made me look upon myself. Have I been living my life in obedience to Allah? Have I always, all the time exalting Him? Have I, in my pursuit of His forgiveness and blessings done my very best in everything as He wanted me too? I know the answer very well and it is too embarrassing for me to say it out loud here. 

Self, stop giving excuses & start doing and striving!

Sollu ála Rasulillah
Salam Maulidur Rasul,

12 Rabiul Awal 1438H
11/12/2016
2020H



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