Friday, February 24, 2017

kehilangan

Diri ini seakannya hilang.
Kehendak.
Daya tahan.
Minat.
Sabar.
Semangat dan cinta.

Teringat-ingat pesan guru saya, semangat pasti akan ada bila adanya cinta dalam melakukan sesuatu.

Ramai khuatir.
Diri ini pun khuatir.
Mengapa?

Seakan-akan kelelahan merantai diri.
Terjaganya diri di waktu pagi tidak lagi dipenuhi dengan semangat yang berkobar-kobar untuk menjalani hari. Untuk menabur bakti. Untuk membuktikan pada dunia yang diri ini bererti.

Hari yang dijalani semakin dipenuhi pertanyaan yang tak terjawab.

Sejujurnya, diri ini cuba bertahan semampunya, sebaiknya, agar sekurang-kurangnya tanggungjawab dan kewajipan yang ada tidak terabai.
Namun, seolah-olah perkara sekecil itu pun tidak kesampaian.

Tuhan, Yang Maha Perkasa, Yang Berkuasa atas segala sesuatu, kurniakan diriku dan keluargaku kesabaran dan kekuatan untuk menjalani kehidupan ini sebaik-baiknya dengan cara yang Engkau redhai.
Semoga setiap detik kehidupan kami mendekatkan kami dengan dakapan rahmat dan kasih sayang-Mu.

#usahberputusasa

#maafsayatidakpandaimeluahkanbicara

Monday, December 12, 2016

His creations and me

#lateentry

In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful

Today, I am very fortunate to be able to do my favourite activity on Earth (next to being with my family) - sitting on the beach, facing the blue ocean. Undisturbed. Uninterrupted. Just me and the ocean. And the sound of the waves. Occasionally, I could feel the waves against my feet. 

I am very fortunate to be able to fell how it's like to be running on the soft white sand - it's as if you are running on cotton. My ankle would let me run the whole day if I wanted to. 

Yup. Just me and the nature. Beautiful as it is. Just the way The Creator want it to be. And these things: they keep on doing what they do; the wind blowing day after day; so does the waves; the sand; and the rest. And indeed, they are in obedience to their Creator. On top of that, at all times, they exalt Him. 


سَبَّحَ لِلَّهِ مَا فِي السَّمَاوَاتِ وَمَا فِي الْأَرْضِ ۖ وَهُوَ الْعَزِيزُ الْحَكِيمُ


Surah as-Saff ( 61:1)

Whatever is in the heavens and whatever is on the earth exalts Allah , and He is the Exalted in Might, the Wise.

Which made me look upon myself. Have I been living my life in obedience to Allah? Have I always, all the time exalting Him? Have I, in my pursuit of His forgiveness and blessings done my very best in everything as He wanted me too? I know the answer very well and it is too embarrassing for me to say it out loud here. 

Self, stop giving excuses & start doing and striving!

Sollu ála Rasulillah
Salam Maulidur Rasul,

12 Rabiul Awal 1438H
11/12/2016
2020H



Sunday, October 30, 2016

What's your pace?

Few days back I went to buy food, with my mini-me(my niece) tagging along. After a while, she bugged me to go home. Still having to buy her brother's chicken rice, I paced up, to me it was just brisk walking but she was almost running, and she did that unhesitatingly, without complaining. Despite of her small steps, doing her best to keep up to my pace. I couldn't help but to relate that to my job. Us, being the mere immature, clueless, almost inexperienced, with barely much knowledge, came into the working life, like kiddies. Our steps are small, very much immature. Yet we tried to keep up, though it means running. Some are at advantage, those with larger steps(some of us have more experience than others - like my friends who diligently and tirelessly went to wards and clinics to learn when we were students. Of course, they're at much more advantage compared to me), or perhaps those who have senior colleagues who are very much willing to tell where are the potholes so we could avoid them, where are the slippery road so won't trip and fall. Nevertheless, we do learn through the hard way too. So much to describe on that, so I'll just pass.

As the title goes, what is your pace? And would it ultimately matter? Very subjective ain't it? Anyway, I would say that it is better to have someone who keeps on going despite of the pace (which would be very much influenced by many other factors) rather than someone who *deliberately* dragged others down. And I ain't saying about those whom fate had decided that their path would be a rocky one. Who I meant by those who *deliberately* dragged others would be those who are fortunate enough to get the job but perhaps their vocabularies don't include responsibility, trust, reliance and selflessness. O Allah, do protect me, my family and those around me from such terrible character. 


*the above was written long way back and is only edited and published now. 


Just to remind myself, here are words of your own dear: 
"Tire remains a mere word as long as you have passion and perseverance in what you are doing".




"O you who have believed, persevere and endure and remain stationed and fear Allah that you may be successful"
"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu, dan bersedialah serta bertaqwalah kamu kepada Allah supaya kamu berjaya mencapai kemenangan"

(Ali Imran 2: verse 200)

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