Past, present and future. Past. Eh?

I have heard countless times not to live in the past and not to worry about the future. Instead, live in the present. For past will never come back and the future is not promised. Letting go is an art. Is a capability. Probably behind it all, there is science yet to be explained. However, knowing myself, the emotional me, I hold tight onto...

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Dilemma

There is this one urge that had been bothering me lately. The urge to quit. To quit this path that doesn't feel right with me. Perhaps I belong elsewhere. I told someone, then she told me: "muslims don't quit". True. But I ain't quitting life right? I told another person, then he said: "A path won't always be easy....

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That unrelenting guilt.

Bismillah. The past month had been about me struggling to fight my inner demons. My inner thoughts. The constant thought chatter, that's what my therapist called it. I called it spiraling into overthinking. Overthinking ain't the same as critical thinking. Critical thinking provides you a wider point of view and options. On...

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an indescribable outcry

I have been so overwhelmed lately. By a certain emotion consecutively. Stressed, helpless and sad/upset. Entering a new rotation requires me to make friends with new people, adapting to new system and environment, and most tiring of all - putting up a wall of protection and breaking the communication shell at the same time. And that's...

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a year remembered by many, if not most

 as I listen to the song bad liarit somehow reminds me of the year 2020I am not sure in what way but in the fact that 2020 was full of wishes and expectations but yet it's breaking at it seamswe are trying so hard sometimes we forgot to let it belet it goes along with the flow and for us to take a breath in between. from...

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