Proud

 Many people told me that they are proud of my achievements, especially over my recent success on passing my defense. Of course, there are still many more hurdles in future, but at least I am one step closer now.But what I don't understand is that I don't feel proud at all. Relieved, definitely. It had been a long struggle since I started, so yes, definitely relieved. Should I be proud of myself? Honestly, I am lost.&nb...

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crying out loud

I felt awful yesterday and last night.coz I felt dreadful over comments by Prof after we had mock presentation in the morning. and I didn't get the chance to present to my own supervisors before - not sure why, but I kind of disappointed over this. I felt hopeless and deflated, thinking that I will surely fail.I cried many times throughout...

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32 years old...

 and never knew how much more time I have left... Alhamdulillah.10 years ago  - 2013. I think (as far as I could remember) I was still eager to be a surgeon. Living my days as medical student - learning, practicing, managing stress, making friends, meeting new people, whilst trying to pass my medical school so I could become a doctor....

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