How many times?

I have told myself 'something' once. And another thing happened. I pushed it all aside and started fresh.

Not really fresh I guess, since I deliberately leave a mark without a known reason. Perhaps because I do not want history to repeat itself.

But now, a certain someone said the exact same 'something'. And now it resounds in my head. And again. And again. What actually happened? I thought I had been thinking over it enough to get over it but…

I think I had been living my life quite well this few years, hadn't I? I thought I had confronted this and could walk-off feeling free. If that is really true, then what am I experiencing now?

Some things are best confronted and some things are better to be left alone. Yet, there is always the grey zone. Not knowing what to do, I pledge for help… soon enough, I'll find the answers, insyaAllah…

Celine Dion: Because You Loved Me

For all those times you stood by me

For all the truth that you made me see

For all the joy you brought to my life

For all the wrong that you made right

For every dream you made come true

For all the love I found in you

I'll be forever thankful baby

You're the one who held me up

Never let me fall

You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn't speak

You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'coz you believed

I'm everything I am

Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly

You touched my hand I could touch the sky

I lost my faith, you gave it back to me

You said no star was out of reach

You stood by me and I stood tall

I had your love I had it all

I'm grateful for each day you gave me

Maybe I don't know that much

But I know this much is true

I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn't speak

You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'coz you believed

I'm everything I am

Because you loved me

You were always there for me

The tender wind that carried me

A light in the dark shining your love into my life

You've been my inspiration

Through the lies you were the truth

My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak

You were my voice when I couldn't speak

You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'coz you believed

I'm everything I am

Because you loved me

I'm everything I am

Because you loved me

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Ya Allah, janganlah walau seketika cuma Engkau jadikan aku lupa bahawa aku hanyalah hamba pada-Mu

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Trapezium and parallelogram…

They just don't have the line of symmetry(except for a square and rectangle- since a square/rectangle is a parallelogram too)!

Pelajar: "mana ad cikgu! Trapezium and parallelogram ada garisan simetri laa"

Cikgu: Dari mana awak blajar ni? xcaya pulak ckgu ckp. Meh sini ckgu tunjuk…

(cikgu tu pun lukis hakikat yg sebenarnye)…

Pelajar: "takkanla….xpela, nt sy check balik"

Cikgu: xnak percaya lg? xpe, nt awak try gunting sendiri, pastu lipat sendiri sampai dapat(sarkastik)

Believing in the absolutely false fact, the student refused to accept the truth. Not until she couldn't prove that the line of symmetry existed. Eventually, she learned that the trapezium and parallelogram really don't have the line of symmetry.

Some things/facts, are just unacceptable at times. Though they are the REAL truth. It is unfathomable why this happens. The truth is thought to be untrue? Funny. Maybe because truth does not always mean good news or happiness. At times, truth can be devastating. Facts can be manipulated. Fate has its own twist. History may only reveal part of itself which leads to misunderstanding.

What I really want to say is: some things are just beyond your control because it is what it is.

*in the state of confusion*

Allah always has the 'hikmah' for everything that happens.

"…

Saya berdoa kepada Allah supaya kurniakan saya kekuatan, kesabaran dan dedikasi untuk mematuhi ikrar ini sepanjang masa"(late noon; 15/6/2011)

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Ohana means family

And family means nobody's left behind. A phrase from one of my favourite's animation. Indeed. Many people say that doctors sacrifice a lot to treat his/her patients. I won't deny that. Time, energy, emotion and another long list may come up. Yet, people often overlook the fact that the people who are behind these doctors are sacrificing even more. They sacrifice the quality time they ought to have with these doctors, the emotions they bear when these doctors' emotions are draining, their claim of priority when these doctors have to put their patients first over anyone else, not even their parents, spouses or children. Yet, these family members are always there when the doctor thinks that s/he can no longer cope with the hardships. These kind people still make an effort to keep in touch and give support and encouragement by sending an SMS though they often have their inbox filled with SMS from these group of human being called 'doctors'. See? The family members are sacrificing more than the doctor does.

And in this pursuit of becoming a doctor, I am more than blessed and grateful to have such a family.

When I give a call to tell stories or most likely, a problem, I can hear the reassuring voices. Perhaps that is the reason I called in the first place, knowing that I will be comforted in such a way that the silver lining that was blind to me prior to that becomes as bright as the sun. 'xpe', 'don't worry', 'sume ok je, insyaAllah' are the magical phrases albeit the fact that you know these are the words which will hit your eardrum. Actually, you just want to hear them and you will experience the instant effect of comfort like the one you have when someone embraces you when you are about to fall apart.

Thanks a lot for being my family and let me be part of your life:)

We may not have it all together, but together, we have it all.

Ya Allah, ampunilah diriku dan keluargaku, selamatkanlah kami dari derita dan azab di dunia dan akhirat. Berkatilah setiap perbuatan kami dan sertakanlah redha-Mu dalam setiap saat kehidupan kami. Jadikanlah kami sebaik-baik manusia yang beroleh kemenangan di dunia dan akhirat.

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