Sunday, October 18, 2015

~a matter of equation~

"You are not the centre of the equation. Your patient is. At the end of the day, your patient is who matters the most" -quoted from my senior consultant.

Most of the time now, I dragged myself to work. Mostly because:
i) I don't want to burden my colleagues with my MC/ EL
ii) I still hold responsibility over my job even at times I don't feel like doing it.

But true enough, the above saying couldn't be wrong. You would feel bad if you haven't done the most for your patient and vice versa, nothing can beat the satisfaction that you had when you see the patient is in his/her good shape.

One of my specialist had told us: too bad you are in this profession and in this hospital. Welcome to hell. But there are just moments that will bring you through all difficulties such as a mere thanks from the patient or a pat at the back from your boss.

I won't deny that either.

I just won't forget the moment an aunty told me "Thank you doctor, you are such a nice doctor. May God bless you". All I did to her was greeting her and asked how she is while I poke her for few drops of her blood (she just came for blood taking). Still, her smile and those short sentences remained in my memories- to keep me holding on.

You know what, of all three postings I went through so far, this is the most terrible. It is just undescribable. Sorry I couldn't put it into words. Dealing with mostly pregnant women, every time I see one of them, I would've prayed, Dear Lord, make the delivery safe for them and let both the mother and baby come out well and every time I see a lady with a newborn, I would've thought that this lady must have just delivered last night. :P

One early morning, when I just reached the hospital to start my day, I saw this one lady with her newborn, waiting at the lobby, perhaps waiting for her husband to bring home. Needlessly, I smiled at her. To my surprise, she walked towards me and said "Thank you doctor, I had delivered my baby safely yesterday". Still stunned, I could only say, "Praise to Allah. Please take good care of your and the baby at home. Congratulations". And I could see her face shining bright with a smile. Just like the sun, that short moment brightens up my day.

Indeed, in the end, it is the patient that matters.

"Give more and expect less"

O Allah, grant me the strength and perseverance to live this life as means to earn Your blessings and forgiveness.

*this post had been written when I was still in my previous posting. I am truly sorry that it is only posted now*

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