Doc wannabe…

Hmm… td masa blogwalking, jmpa perkataan ni kt kwn punya description… huhu,, as u may already figure out, empunya blog yg sy maksudkan ni classmate saya i.e. MS… masa baca kalimah ajaib tu, terus terfikir, 'aku ni bukan doc wannabe gk ke? Atau pun da xde da 'wanna' tu? Tinggal doc to be je? Adoi…

Bila fikir2 blik keadaan n pncapaian diri pada masa ni, rasa cm mkin sush je…n the word wanna is certainly fading off… huhu, teringat plak kata2 fasi masa kem PPD, org yg most motivated masa kem ni pling bahaya skali(referring to a question about how much u want to be a doc-I put my score as 5, which is max), sebab dia kene maintain motivation dia n certainly not to be at a lower level….. *dush* memg kene batang hidung sndiri.

Jadi, pesan buat diri ini… janganlah jemu atau bosan….kumpulkan kembali semangat dan keinginan tu…n jangan lupa bahawa yang paling penting ialah Rahmat n Redha Allah s.w.t...

Juz some stories for the sake of record(so that I can review from time to time to get a boost for my motivation)…



I had been enthusiastic about being a doc since I was a child(thnx to Bteh who underwent appendicectomy at that time-the exact event which piqued my interest to become a doctor)…so enthusiastic that even my elder cousin's friend knew about it (coz one day, I met her(at that time I am already a med student) and she said something like this: "Oh, ni la dia budak kecik yg nk jadi doktor tu eh? Nasib baik masuk medical school…(huhu, memang nasib baik pun:D)



Teringat pulak kt kad yang cikgu homeroom bagi masa da nk habis Form5…"There is a long way to go… become the best n****s****** in the world"...(fuiyoh...insyaAllah ckgu, walaupun cita-cita saya tu mungkin berubah;])...p/s: rindu sgt kt Ckgu Noreen!!!



Memandangkan cikgu saya ni sebut perkataan the best tu, ini mengingatkan saya tentang amanat dari dekan(saya belum fifth year lg taw:P)…huhu, juz a statement from his speech in Opening Ceremony of 23rd EAMSC at KL Tower(if I am not mistaken:D)… 'to become the leaders of your field in the world' … sangat gempak ayat ni...memang berasap, nk meletup pun boleh… still, I know that this statement bears great hope...



Last but not least, since all these stories seem to add up the tension(due to the beyond-the-sky expectations :D), I remembered my very own brother's words: "Jangan anggap harapan@expectation orang lain itu sebagai beban, tapi jadikan pendorong semangat =]]]] )" very true, and certainly what I need-credits goes to Bjek…





Jadi, sama2lah kita terus berusaha… sesungguhnya Islam tidak membenarkan umatnya berputus asa… Semoga bimbingan dan redha Allah sentiasa bersama kita...


p/s: maaf sgt2 atas tatabahasa yg amat teruk/truly sorry for the terrible grammar, rasa nk guna bhs rojak je kali ni...

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something...

Here is something new… at least that is what I think…

First and foremost, I want to apologize to everyone for every single error, mistake or any wrong doings that I had done.

Secondly, I think this blog had somehow become a medium for me to voice out my feelings, though that is not my initial intention of writing entries- I am sorry that it turned out this way. Perhaps I feel better this way. I am sorry if somehow my entries wasted your time- but I hope that won't happen to anyone of you. If you don't really get the message I tried to deliver through the entries, I hope you can at least learnt a lesson from why I did wrong or anything at all, perhaps just feels enlightened by reading any of those entries.

About something new that I mentioned in the beginning, it is actually my feelings or thoughts are becoming numb. The pathogenesis? I think I know, but I don’t think so too… complicated huh? I think, for the time being, let it be just like that. Don't bother about it. Pain hurts, but actually it is meant to protect you, though at times, it kills. That's why I think being numb is better for the time being…

Let's proceed to a story, for us to contemplate…

Somewhere in this world, there is a girl with big dreams… living a happy life, with no doubt, but not to an extent that she does not know what pain or frustration is… happy enough for her to believe that there is meaning to life… as she grows up, she learns that everything is possible but there is no such thing as perfection. Living her life to the fullest, she begins to fulfill her dreams, one by one, very smoothly, as days goes by… and of course, in the process, she learns more things, making her stronger and wiser. However, from another point of view, she starts to acknowledge limitations and believe that some things may not be possible and let other people to discourage or disallow her to do something…


Let me stop at there…

Few questions to ask: 1) How can this girl accomplishes her dreams one by one? 2)What does she acquire during the learning process- which make her stronger and wiser? 3) Is it good for her to acknowledge limitations and believe that some things may not be possible and let other people to discourage or disallow her to do something? Justify.












For me, this girl may be affected by the pain she suffered throughout the process. The experience makes her stronger and wiser. Among those experiences, there must be pain. In a way, pain makes her wiser as the pain may prevent her from doing foolish stuff which can hurt her. From another point of view, she may dare not do something because of the pain she might suffer afterwards. At this time, risk and fear comes in… so, is it good or otherwise? You decide...


Thnx a lot:)



p/s: I AM a student!

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saya sayang ayah jugak!

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

Entry kali ni ditujukan khas buat ayah tercinta... Sebenarnya nk dedicate masa birthday ayah macam mah buat untuk mek, tapi xde kesempatan n idea nk buat macam tu...lmbt dua minggu... sori ayah...

hmmm... nk citer skit tentang ayah...ayah dulu garang sangat, huhu...sangat takut kt 'hakim mahkamah agung'... tp mah still sayang ayah...

ayah mesti marah kalau mah nangis...huhu...mesti ada baiknya...pada masa yang sama, ayah ajar mah untuk kuat n xterbawa-bawa oleh perasaan...

Ayah sentiasa jadi idola mah~ berani! walaupun mah xla berani macam ayah... Ayah kn macam MacGyver... n mah rasa banyak yang mah dapat dari ayah..termasuklah memanfaatkan masa yang terluang untuk 'recharge' otak n badan..huhu

Ayah pun banyak ajar mah bout self-presentation...huhu...dulu mah msti comot sgt kn..hehehe...mah ingat lg dulu masa kecik2 ayah selalu keringkan rambut mah lepas mandi n sikat rambut mah sebab kusut sgt...hehe...gosok baju pun ayah yg ajar...wlupun ad lg jugak tudung sekolah yang mah da lubangkan...hehe, xpe kan ayah? it's part of learning...hehe...betapa penyayang nye ayah mah ni

Walaupun ayah garang, mah yakin tu sebab ayah sayangkan anak-anak ayah...n ayah pun seorang yang penyabar jugak... mah ingat lagi masa mah darjah satu, ayah cek buku latihan mah...subjek Bahasa Melayu-tatabahasa... xde pun yg salah...tetiba je ada satu pangkah... sebab mah tulis "Murid-Murid.....", pastu ayah pun ajar mah yang huruf besar perkataan pertama ayat je, walaupun kata ganda.... ok, baru mah taw...

Ayah seorang yang amat penyayang~ apa buktinya? Ayah taw apa yg anak2 ayah suka... mah suka kismis, ayah selalu belikan bila balik kelantan... aritu ayah belikan jubah...cm taw2 je mah n kjah nk jubah...hehe...instinct ayah ni power la... err...ayah suka ap ea? ad la skit2 yg mah taw...air suam, kacang, keropok, ikan masin, daging goreng, betik, durian, dll...

Ayah sentiasa nk yg terbaik untuk anak2 ayah--> ni memang xdpt disangkal lagi. wlupun mungkin ad masanya mah xsuka(ayah ingat x masa mah nk UPSR dulu ayah limitkn mah makan sekali je chickedees seminggu)...mah yakin, insyaAllah, slagi kemahuan ibu bapa tidak bertentangan dengan perintah dan larangan Allah, pastinya akan membawa keberkatan dunia n akhirat...

Ayah tanpa jemu mencari rezeki untuk anak-anak. Meskipun penat, ayah tetap berusaha yang terbaik untuk memberikan kami yang terbaik. Mah rasa amat bertuah ada ayah sebagai ayah mah...

yang paling penting, mah nk ucapkan byk2 terima kasih atas didikan ayah yang menjadikan siapa diri mah sekarang.. moga rahmat dan redha Allah sentiasa menaungi kita sekeluarga...

Semoga mah dpt jd anak yg solehah n dpt terus berbakti pada ibu bapa agar kita sume termasuk dlm golongan yg diredhai Allah di dunia n akhirat...aaminn

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