Kekuatan itu.

Have I ever told you that I always have this over-thinking problem. Imagining this. Imagining that. Anticipating this and that too. And as what the term (overthinking) describes, less than one percent of all those actually happened.

So this was what I thought of the other day.

Somehow I was in the midst of conversation with my bosses (consultant included), I couldn’t remember exactly what was the topic, but I remembered who(does this matter to begin with?) and I wasn’t sure what had happened but then my boss said: “whoaaaa nak mati ke jawab macam tu?”. And somehow my reply was even more surprising: “kenapa nak takut boss? Setiap hari saya doa moga diberikan kekuatan untuk menjalani hari tersebut. Dah banyak hari saya rasa macam nak mati je tapi tiap-tiap pagi Allah bangunkan saya untuk teruskan hidup”.

I have no idea how I came up with that, and I bet I don’t have the guts to actually say that to my boss. Hehehe. But that really made me ponder. Why did I say that? And indeed, I beg for strength and patience everyday for living is freaking exhausting. 

Dan disebabkan kekuatan itu, saya masih di sini sekarang. Dan saya masih saya. Setinggi-tinggi pujian buat Ilahi yang Maha Kuasa dan Perkasa. 

Dalam kesedihan, ada cuitan yang menggembirakan.

Dalam kesunyian, hadir sapa dan suara yang menceriakan.

That someone’s smile.

Someone’s joke.

Someone who’s asking because he or she is concerned.

Relaxing drive which untangles your confused thoughts.

Questions which lead you to answers.

Thoughts that make you think.

Senja yang menakjubkan.

Matahari yang tidak pernah penat menyinar.

Langit cantik yang tidak pernah tidak menenangkan.

Lautan tenang yang hanya dengan membayangkannya dapat menggembirakan.

Senyuman sahabat yang hanya dengan mengingatinya mengukir senyuman dirimu sendiri.

Dan seterusnya.

And this list is not exhaustive.

Alhamdulillah.

Thank you Allah.

Please make me and the people around me among grateful people and contented.

For all the blessings are from You and to You we shall return.

Jangan sekali-kali menarik rahmat dan barakah-Mu. Limpahkan kami dengan kesabaran dan kekuatan untuk menjalani kehidupan ini dengan sebaik-baiknya.

Allahu, sesungguhnya hati ini rindu :’(

I hope this post did not translate into negativity for you, it’s just a reminder for me to be grateful and to keep on pleading from my Lord.

#random

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