Proud

 Many people told me that they are proud of my achievements, especially over my recent success on passing my defense. Of course, there are still many more hurdles in future, but at least I am one step closer now.But what I don't understand is that I don't feel proud at all. Relieved, definitely. It had been a long struggle since I started, so yes, definitely relieved. Should I be proud of myself? Honestly, I am lost.&nb...

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crying out loud

I felt awful yesterday and last night.coz I felt dreadful over comments by Prof after we had mock presentation in the morning. and I didn't get the chance to present to my own supervisors before - not sure why, but I kind of disappointed over this. I felt hopeless and deflated, thinking that I will surely fail.I cried many times throughout...

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32 years old...

 and never knew how much more time I have left... Alhamdulillah.10 years ago  - 2013. I think (as far as I could remember) I was still eager to be a surgeon. Living my days as medical student - learning, practicing, managing stress, making friends, meeting new people, whilst trying to pass my medical school so I could become a doctor....

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Reflection

 A few weeks had passed. I had a good start to the year. Little did I know that ugly, terrible things were to follow. Don't judge me. I am writing this out as an effort to let go and move on. A tragedy happened that shook me to the core. Something that made me question myself, lose trust in others and more importantly, something that...

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2023

 2023Alhamdulillah it is a new year.I started the year with not many resolutions in my mind. There were very few in fact.-Getting my thesis done.-Passing my masters- and everything that comes with it.-And at some corner of my heart- finding a partner🙈 (but of course, I never said this out loud). My boss called me and asked - what’s...

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Setbacks

 There will be times in our life that things just go smoothly. As we had wished and planned. What we need comes at the right time, the right people lent their hand at the perfect moment. Things just go as it was 'meant to be' (by our definition). But that weren't all. Life wouldn't be fun if all there is right? There are times...

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