A tribute too late and will never suffice

بسم الله الرحمن االرحيم I plan to make this entry on someone's birthday. Someone who I live in before living in this world. Someone who had brought me up. Someone who had taught me about faith and believe. Someone who had instilled in me confidence and esteem. Someone who had convinced me that she will always be there for me. Someone...

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Worn out

For long I had thought Why me? Why are these all unending? How long shall this last? For I am exhausted Worn out Tired Breathless To a point that I no longer wish to breathe So everything shall pass by Without any effort Being tireless For long I did think in such way For countless times I wish for things to end But just now I was reminded That that is how life would be When we are living for the sake of being Rather than the sake of the Creator For if we are living for Allah We shall be tireless as from Him, we ask for strength We shall be...

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the secret to keep going on

بسم الله الرحن الرحيم Alhamdulillah, now I had gone through three months of my housemanship. It wasn't easy and full of dry tears :) Many at times, I had to drag myself going to work, not to abandon my responsibility, to carry out my duty. In a way, you would picture it as something I do because it is obligatory. I wouldn't deny that to an extent....

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I don't deserve this

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم How shall I start this? It is very difficult for me to write this out for a few reasons: i) from some perspectives, it is going to be negative ii) it is to admit one's shortcomings, negative thoughts and feelings iii) this could be a side of me people had never seen.  Nevertheless, I wrote this as a reminder for myself...

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to live or to die?

السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته Praise and glory be upon Allah The Almighty and The Sustainer Alhamdulillah, I had been living for 23 years which also means my life is now 23 years short since I was born. My life has not been easy but it is not that hard when compared to others. I have lovely parents and family, friends and awesome people around...

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Once upon a time

              There was this one time, during a medical students' conference that I was shocked by a conversation I had. This happened years back when I got to meet a lot of awesome medical students from other countries. I had the most amazing group members and facilitators. All of them were so friendly and warm (that...

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air kelapa

Nak tahu cerita tak? Ada seorang budak ni. Dia suka sangat air kelapa tapi jarang-jarang dia dapat minum. Selalu kalau minum air manis pun, minum air teh, kopi, sirap dan yang seangkatan dengannya. Ada sekali tu, ada orang nak belanja dia minum. Orang tu tanya, nak air kopi atau air kelapa? Terpulang pada dia nak air mana. Agak-agaknya budak tu pilih air apa? Mestilah air kelapa kan? Walaupun air kopi pun dia suka tapi air kelapa dia jarang dapat. Lagipun, dia mungkin tak dapat peluang nak minum air kelapa lagi lepas tu(sekurang-kurangnya dalam...

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unsettled

for whatever reason, more doubts keep popping up. even things I thought I had done confidently. I doubt them. I doubt myself. that is why I hate it. I started to let my confidence waver, my enthusiasm falter. this is still going to be a long journey though it all seems to come to its end. be cool. be tough. be patient. be passionate. be strong. be humble. have perseverance. things which are meant for you will come to you. things which are not will never come to you despite you ran for it. keep going on. your job is to work. Allah will decide. be...

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coffee bean

O Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most BeneficientI may be a coffeeholic but that is not the reason I am choosing this title.Have you ever heard a story about the coffee bean? I am not sure of what I did. I am not sure if I was aware of my choices and what would I choose in future. However, I am bloody certain about the kind of life I am living in.There...

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that one secret

assalamualaikum wbt "you just got to believe" Well, I suppose that is the gist of Kungfu Panda. The Secret. It is true, we got to believe in oneself and that would kick off everything. If one could do something by the mere fact s/he is just doing it, perhaps that is just coincidence. Nevertheless, that is not the one secret I want to talk...

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